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#365DayChallenge

I started the 365 day challenge with Undressed Skeleton on Tumblr.  You can follow me on Twitter @BryanaHall or on Pinterest @bryanahall to check my progress!

Wish me luck, fellow tumblrs!

My whole life I have thought that the way to get my shit together was by hating myself so much that I couldn’t take it anymore and I HAD to change.  But it hasn’t worked so far, it’s just made everything worse.  Still, I’m scared that accepting my faults means that I will get complacent and stuck and that I won’t be able to change them.  Then I watched this video, and it made sense to me.  It will take a long time to change years of negative thinking, but  I feel like watching this once a day will help.

Day One of ‘Doing something differently’.

Well, I got a Moleskine large daily planner:

to function as my weight loss/wellness journal.  It’s got the times written on it so I can track what I ate when, when I exercised, and how much water I drank.  It feels good so far…I can’t use MFP, I’ve found that it just replaced my bulimia (I’m a non-purging bulimic, btw) and it made me feel healthier, but I was obsessed with it and used to ask it permission before eating and lie to it, and that wasn’t healthy.  So it’s a nice alternative to My Fitness Pal and it lets me be aware and accountable for what I’m eating without counting calories obsessively.